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Haven’t posted in awhile… sorry about that.  I’ve been waiting on this, that and the other thing to happen before I finally got around to submitting The Concubine.  Well, Friday morning I finally got tired of waiting on things to happen, so I bit the bullet, threw caution to the wind, and all those other cliches you can think of…

And I submitted it.

Eep!

I just want everyone to know that I am:

a) flipping out right now

b) working on a new novel that’s actually a historical Western romance (out of my genre much?)

and c) impossible to be around due to trying to quit smoking.

So there you are.

Faily McFailerson

I utterly fail at keeping an updated blog.  For those of you who are following me, sorry about that.

FYI to the spambots: all comments including links are moderated.  Stop trying.
Anyway… I haven’t actually updated because there’s no news.  A friend has the second revision of The Concubine and I’m waiting for her to finish and get back to me before I do anything else.  Since she hasn’t done so, I’m in a holding pattern.

I am working on a glorified porno story for an e-publisher; another friend works as an editor for them and has told me I’m pretty much a shoo-in to get published by them if I can get off my duff and write some explicit sex.  I’m pretty capable of doing that, but I’m also uninspired by my storyline.  *sigh*

In the meantime, I have my story for the NCIS Bigbang community on LiveJournal.  It’s currently standing at 22,110 words and I’m probably… 2/3 of the way through it.  Unless I can think of something else exciting to do with it.  It’s a great story, though; comes complete with a childhood trauma for my favorite character.  :)

My list of Works in Progress stands currently at five: the bigbang, which is still untitled; the sex thing, also still untitled; the Concubine sequel; Desperate Measures which is a Gibbs/Ziva NCIS fic; and Chaos Theory, which is an NCIS/Buffy crossover fic.  All of them are multi-chapter epics.  I’m thriving on the bigbang right now because it’s fun to write.  The others I’m sort of struggling with.

*sigh* I could have picked something easier to do with my time.  Like, I dunno, serial homicide.

The gods hate me, have I mentioned that?

Revisions, for those unfamiliar, suck. I have never considered any part of writing to be tedious work before, but revisions? Yes.

DOING the revisions isn’t hard; printing the pages out, going over them with a hypercritical eye, marking things, going crazy with the sticky notes, that’s all good stuff. The evilness comes in when I have to sit with the notebook and make the changes in the electronic file. Misery, tedium, angst, weeping, wailing, and procrastination like WHOA.

I’m actually almost done - that would be the reason for my lack of postage over the last week or so. I’ve been spending my mornings in my friendly coffee shop, banging out the changes and trying not to strangle myself for ever thinking this was a good idea. I am actually at the very end of things, page 367 of 369, staring down the denouement and thinking “Oh, man, I have to write AN ENTIRE CHAPTER TO TIE UP ALL THESE LOOSE ENDS?! Can’t people just ACCEPT that it happened off-screen so to speak?”

No… no, they can’t. *sigh*

Rachel has promised to read the second draft for me while she’s on vacation next week, but she leaves on Saturday, which means I have to get this new chapter written by tomorrow. And I don’t feel like writing tonight, because I’ve spent all day doing revisions and writing smutty fanfiction.

My brain is fried. I am ABSOLUTELY NOT picking up “The Concubine” or the sequel AT ALL next week. Not even opening the file. Next week is all about busman’s holiday - I’ve got fandom commitments to uphold, and next week is going to be all about them. *firm nod*

God, I’m tired.

Edit: Did I mention I’m up to 102,778 words?  Without the final additional chapter.  God.  *dies*

Something Different

A segment of something else I’ve been toying with… What do you think?

The Borderlands (working title)

The pristine white walls of the hallway were so bright that Park had to squint against the glare piercing her cybernetic eye as she made her way confidently toward her goal. Room 24, she repeated to herself as she checked the plates on each door she passed. Room 24.

Room 24 turned out to be at the end of the hallway, indistinguishable from all the other doors except by the numerals etched on the plate over the scanner. She stripped off her Company-issue glove and placed her hand on the glass plate. The scanner hummed, then there was a moment of silence before the door lock clicked and the door itself swung slowly open.

Park replaced her glove and stepped into the room. “You. On your feet.”

The occupant of the five-by-five cell, a man in his late forties with graying hair and piercing green eyes, stared up at her, hatred on his chiseled face, and did not move. Park laid a threatening hand on her sidearm, and he finally stood, his lip curling. “You like your job?” he asked her, pacing toward her. “You like dragging people down to the black room, watching them go in as whole people and come out again brainwashed shells? I bet you do, don’t you? You get off on it.”

“Shut up. Incubator scum.” Park reached around on the back of her belt and pulled out her Company-issue cuffs. “Turn around and put your hands behind your back.”

The man stared at her for a long moment with an expression of deep contempt, and finally turned, putting his wrists together behind himself. She attached the cuffs securely, then took him by the elbow and led him from the room, shutting the door securely behind her. She led him down the hall, back to the elevator, and pushed him in none too gently, following him in and pressing a button on the control pad. Once the small room was moving, she reached into the pocket of her jumpsuit and pressed a button on the tiny controller secreted there.

“Reading you, Park,” a woman’s voice spoke in her ear. “Jamming the signal now. You have thirty seconds. Move!”

Park reached out and unhooked the electronic cuffs, pulling them off her prisoner’s wrists. As he turned to stare at her in shock, she pulled her sidearm and shot at the ceiling. The laser burst melted back a panel of the ceiling, and she turned to her very surprised companion. “Gimme a boost.”

He stared at her, and she reached out, whacking him on the side of the head. “Now, Rich! We don’t have a lot of time!”

Rich took a knee immediately and laced his fingers together, and Park stepped into his hands. He pushed her upward and she slammed her fist into the panel, knocking it completely out, then reached up and grabbed one of the steel struts, pulling herself up through the hole. She flattened herself on the roof of the elevator and reached down with both hands, taking Rich’s outstretched hand and pulling upward with all her strength.

Once he was partway through the hole, she transferred his grip to the same strut she’d used, grabbing him by the back of his pants to help him up through the hole. “Careful!” he exclaimed.

“No time for that! Come on!” Park moved to the side of the elevator shaft, grabbing a rung of the service ladder and starting up.

“Fifteen seconds, Park!” came the voice in her ear, and she redoubled her speed, passing the first set of doors she came to and locating a ventilation shaft in between it and the next door up. She pulled the hatch open and swung to the side.

“In here! Quick!”

Rich ducked into the shaft and she followed, pausing to wriggle out of her jumpsuit as she did so. She handed him her sidearm, pushing the fabric back out into the shaft, then reached up for the face-concealing mask she wore. She pulled it off, shaking her thick red hair out, and grinned at Rich as she tossed it back out into the shaft before pulling the hatch closed behind her.

“Park?” Rich asked, his voice full of disbelief in the pitch-dark crawlspace. “What the hell?”

“It’s called a breakout, Rich. I’m sure you’re familiar. We need to get moving.”

There was a burst of static in her ear, and then the voice again. “Signal’s back on. You’ve got maybe three minutes before all hell breaks loose. Get a move on.”

She squeezed past him in the crawlspace. “Put your hand on my ankle so we don’t get separated,” she warned him, switching her cybernetic eye to laser vision, and started forward on her hands and knees. Rich’s hand came down on her ankle a moment later, and she began to move as quickly as she could, following the route laid out for her in her memory chip. Fifteen feet, then a left, ten feet, then a right, fifteen more feet, another right, five feet, a left, and then another hatch. She eased it open just a fraction and listened carefully. The hall beyond was completely silent, so she pushed the hatch all the way open and climbed out. Rich slipped out behind her and shut the hatch again, and she checked her internal map. “This way!” She headed off to the left.

“Park, where are we going?”

“We’re gettin’ the hell outta here, Rich!” She led him to a door at the end of the hallway, double checked her internal map, and nodded, reaching for the sidearm he was still carrying. Leveling the weapon at the computerized lock, she fired its deadly beam of red light. The lock melted instantly, and she shot again, a sustained blast this time which burned a hole right through the steel surface. Through the hole, Rich could see weak reddish light, and he gaped. “You’re kidding me.”

“Fire escape, can you believe it?” Park replied. She reached through the hole and pulled the door open. “Come on.”

He followed her tentatively out onto the rusted metal grating and waited as she dropped the first ladder. “What the hell floor are we on?” he asked, pressing himself up against the brilliant white wall of the building, his fingers clawing at the slick metal siding.

“Sixteenth,” she called back to him. “Which is why we need to hoof it! Damn it, Rich, why are you still standing there?”

As she spoke, a siren began to whine somewhere in the building. Startled out of his temporary paralysis, Rich shook his head hard and grabbed the railing, forcing himself over the railing and onto the ladder. He counted floors as they descended – fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve – and Park was just dropping the eleventh-floor ladder when the door they’d exited through burst open and two hulking figures in Company Security uniforms stepped out onto the metal grating. “Shit!” Park exclaimed, looking up briefly before swinging over the railing and jumping down to the tenth floor. Move, Rich! Kid, we’ve been spotted! Where are you?”

“In the alley, Park,” another voice spoke in her earpiece. “Coming around to your location now.”

“Make it fast!” As she spoke, one of the security guards above them opened fire. They both ducked out of the way, dropping down another floor, and then another, and then another, ducking shots and ignoring shouted commands to halt. From around the corner, the roaring of a hydrogen engine could be heard, and Park breathed a sigh of relief as a very familiar scuttlecar zoomed into view. “Seventh floor, kid! Seventh floor!”

The engine on the scuttlecar roared, and the car lifted straight up into the air, the side hatch opening upward with a hiss of hydraulics. “Go, Rich, go!” Park shouted, and Rich moved past her, climbing onto the railing and ignoring the ground – which, for a moment, seemed impossibly far away – to leap into the car. He heard Park scream behind him, but didn’t have time to wonder why because he was being dragged away from his landing spot, and she was sailing across the gap behind him.

“Go, kid!” he heard another familiar voice shout, and as the side hatch began to close down, the hydrogen engine roared, and everyone who wasn’t strapped down was thrown toward the back of the scuttlecar.

“Ow! Jesus fuck, get offa me!” At the angry shout, Rich rolled backward, off the two bodies beneath him. A very furious, very disheveled and very bleeding Park pushed herself up on her left arm, finding a place on the floor to sit and pulling her right arm around so she could look at it. “Bastards got me. Minh!”

“Got it, Park,” came the calm voice of the other passenger in the scuttlecar – a slight, dark-haired young man with brown skin and almond-shaped eyes. He moved to her side, reaching into a side compartment for a first aid kit, and pulled out bandages and a small tube of salve. “Rich, go buckle in.”

The older man moved to the front of the car, slipping into the passenger seat next to the driver, a blonde and baby-faced boy of about fifteen, who shot him a wicked grin. “How’s it going there, boss man?” the kid quipped, never taking his eyes off the viewscreen as he zipped between buildings and over people and groundcars, taking sharp turns and occasionally doubling back on himself in an effort to elude their pursuers. Rich chose not to answer, instead focusing on buckling the harness and then craning his neck to look over his shoulder as Minh bandaged up Park’s arm. “How bad are you hit, Park?”

“Not bad,” Park replied. “Just grazed my arm. Should be good as new in no time.”

“Thanks for saving my butt,” he offered.

She looked up at him, her brown eyes twinkling as she grinned. “No problem. Hey, I couldn’t just leave you sitting in there, could I? You’re the only one who knows where all the good safehouses are.”

Rich laughed. “Yeah, that’s true.”

Minh finished the bandages on Park’s arm and the two of them moved to strap themselves into the jump seats in the back. “Pedal down, kid,” Park advised the driver, and he shoved the throttle up, blasting out of the back alleys and onto a main street. Zipping above the steady ground traffic, picking up speed on the straightaway, they began to pull away from the pursuing vehicles, all slower and more cumbersome ethanol-powered units. The kid laughed as he slammed on the brakes and turned a precise ninety degrees, slinging them all around in their harnesses before shooting off down another alley. None of the pursuing units could brake or turn quickly enough, and the sound of crumpling metal and shattering plastiglass echoed around them as two of the three crashed into one another while the third, barely missing the pile up, crashed instead into the side of a building. With a whoop of victory, the kid sent the scuttlecar zooming through the alleys, zipping this way and that until they were finally in a completely different sector of the District.

“We’re clear,” the kid finally said. “Any stops in the area?”

“Not today,” Rich said. “Just get us the hell out of here.”

Spinning the steering wheel, the kid turned the scuttlecar north, heading through increasingly poor, increasingly filthy, increasingly dangerous areas before finally jumping the car up and over the ten-foot electrified fence that separated the District from the Borderlands.

Revision Time

After letting it sit for a few days (screw this month thing, I’ve got shit to do) I  printed “The Concubine” out, three-hole-punched it, stuck it in a binder, and hauled it off to Starbucks to start revisions.

1) 300-plus pages requires a two-inch binder.

2) Revision gives me a headache

3) Iced caramel machiato is not as good as the hot version

4) I got ten chapters revised and found a place where I need to (holy crap) add a chapter.  I’m also considering adding a prologue.

5) I absolutely should NOT take a break from revision to read someone else’s novel.  VERY bad for the ego, not to mention the muse started whispering in my ear “Say, you know, we could nudge something like this into our story…”  No!  No!  Bad muse!

Revision time is NOT the time to start thinking about rewriting the book.  Now, since I’m only four chapters into the SECOND book with no discernable plot yet, there are definite possibilities there.  But the first book?  No.  It’s about what it’s about (basically a romance) and the rest of it will fall into line later.

Of course, one never knows; if the epic plot thing DOES pan out, I’d be looking at something like 400k words… I could always combine books one and two.  But they’d have to be pretty spectacular; my understanding is that most publishers don’t like first novels to be over 90-100k words, except in really special cases, like Diana Gabaldon, who pretty much exploded onto the historical romance scene with her Outlander series.

I don’t think I’m an explosion… maybe more like a little pop.

The Cheering Section

One thing that is essential for me in my writing process is my cheering section.  I have a small group of people to whom I send every rough draft as soon as it’s done, every chapter as soon as it’s roughed.  These people, I can virtually guarantee, will tell me how great it is and how much they want more.

Now… this is a double edged sword.  On one hand, I know that these people really *do* enjoy my writing and really *do* appreciate the work I’ve put into it… in part because they are actually on my LiveJournal friends list, and if they didn’t like something I’d written, they wouldn’t comment.

On the other hand… these people are virtually useless (sorry, guys!) when it comes to actual concrit.  They like it so much that they think it’s perfect just the way it is.

I need a cheering section.  I have trouble writing in a vacuum, slogging day after day with no feedback letting me know that, hey, all this effort actually IS worthwhile.  People can say they write for themselves all they like; I’ll be frank and honest: I write fanfic because I like validation, and I write original fic because I want to make money doing something I enjoy.

I’ve wanted to be a writer ever since I was a kid.  As a thorough Aquarius, I’m pretty much unemployable in the regular job market, and my work history proves that.  Hell, I think the fact that I’m 30 years old, living with my mother and going to school full time proves that.  I am someone who needs a job doing creative things… but I’m also the product of a somewhat abusive childhood who needs validation that I’m actually worth something.

Neurotic?  Yes.  Very.  But it works for me.  And honestly?  I think everyone ought to have a cheering section, because it just kinda makes you feel good to know you’re appreciated.

The Curse of the WIP - the Lost Art of Rewriting in Fanfiction

I just read a really interesting and thoughtful essay on LiveJournal with the above title. It’s located at the FanficRants community (don’t let that put you off - it’s not a rant). I think anyone who writes, whether you write fanfic or original works, should read this.

click here

(Edit: how telling is it that I just realized my subject line read “PWP” instead of “WIP”?)

Writing the sequel

So I wrote a novel, the working title of which was “The Floods Cannot Drown It”, and which I have since tentatively titled “The Concubine”. I spent a couple of days working on the summary (now done) and the pitch letter (also done). I have the book itself out with a beta reader, checking it over and making sure I haven’t done anything egregiously stupid. I have another friend who is going to take a look at my summary this weekend and make sure I haven’t done anything else egregiously stupid. So what’s a girl to do in the meantime?

I’ll tell ya.

I had a heck of a time writing anything last year, starting around the middle of the summer. Failed at NaNoWriMo, utterly failed at keeping up with my fandom obligations, just basically failed all the way around. Of course, I was pouring a lot of time and effort into a creative writing class at the Uni. But still… that wasn’t fiction, so… it’s different.

Anyway, flash forward to New Year’s, and I made several resolutions, all of which I have since broken, except one: I resolved to write 100 words of fiction every single day this year without fail.

So far, as anyone who follows my fanfic LiveJournal can tell you, I’ve, um, overshot the mark just a teensy bit. *shifty eyes* BUT what that means is that, even though I’ve finished “The Concubine”, I still have to write. At least 100 words. Every. Day. And the summary? Doesn’t count.

So. Yesterday I wrote a couple hundred words of Gibbs/Abby for a challenge on an NCIS fanfiction LJ community. Today?

Today, being the glutton for punishment that I am, I wrote the first chapter of the sequel to “The Concubine”. The working title is “Many Waters Cannot Quench It” and I’m thinking it’s gonna be just as good as the first one.

Something I am doing differently this time:

In the past, I have never planned out what I intended to do with a story; I simply came up with a plot bunny or picked out a prompt and started writing down words. And that approach has worked well for me… in the past.

With “Waters” though, I’m doing something different. I’ve been reading Holly Lisle’s Plot Outline course and I am attempting to implement it.  One of the things Ms Lisle suggests is to work out your beginning and your ending first, and then futz with the stuff in the middle.  Figure out where you’re starting, figure out where you want to end up, and THEN plot out how you’re going to get there.

I started thinking “Man, that sounds like planning a trip” and then I realized - well, duh, Rainne, that’s because you ARE planning out a journey.  Every book, every story, is a journey, and you have to know where you are and where you’re going before you can figure out how you plan to get there.

Now, I agree that not all who wander are lost, but I have a very, very bad tendency to want to write for my readers.  It’s what’s caused me to lose interest in my Buffy/NCIS crossover epic, which is a shame because that’s a really good story with some really cracked out pairings.

See?  If I’d had a map, I wouldn’t be stuck in the construction.

Proofreading

I don’t think I can stress this enough: proofreading is god. Proofread the novel. Proofread the pitch. Proofread the summary. PROOFREAD EVERYTHING, because Spellcheck WILL NOT tell you when you’ve typed ‘fuck’ instead of ‘duck’, and that really, REALLY changes the meaning of a line like “they ____ed under the water one last time.”

Also, don’t be your only proofreader. Get anyone you know that you trust to proofread it for you. If you can con someone into reading 90k+ words for you and giving you their honest opinion, do it. If you can convince someone to read that <20 page summary, do it. The more eyeballs you can get to look at it NOW, the less embarrassment you will suffer later in rejections.

(Yes, that was the voice of experience talking.  Oh, yes.)

Writing a novel summary

So the first thing you have to do once you, you know, finish your novel, is summarize it.

That’s harder than it sounds.

I just spent twenty days pounding out between three and four thousand words a day, I have over three hundred pages of seriously sweet prose, and you want me to tell you everything that happens in those three hundred pages in less than fifteen?

I hate you.  Hate.  Hate.  Hate.

..ahem.

So, yes.  Have spent the last two days working up a summary of the novel, which is 13 pages long and not quite on tone because I tend to treat myself with a certain amount of sarcasm.  I try not to take myself very seriously… it prevents disappointment when I consistently fail to measure up.

That said…

The process of submission for the agent I was steered towards (Thanks, Rach!) requires a pitch letter, a summary, and the first two pages of the novel.  I’ve posted the first two pages here… I won’t post the summary, but I may post more excerpts later.

Right now, I’m having trouble concentrating on much because my mother, who I love dearly but who does not understand my need for OMGQUIET, is blasting Boston Legal at deafening volume behind me.

*sigh*